I used to believe that sharing my story was a “no-no”, that there was shame in what happened to me and how I lost everything, including almost losing my life. However, over the past five years I have been encouraged to share my story of hope with others, and by doing so here, I hope it does the same for you.
If you’ve followed me for any length of time, you know one of my taglines is “You are NOT broken. There ARE answers and there ARE solutions!” I resonate deeply with this, as this is my true message to the world. You see, I once believed that I was broken because none of the specialists I saw had any answers or solutions for me and because of what I believed to be true in my life back then.
In my Mental Health Masterclass V2.0, 5-part series, I go into detail in part 4 about how sick I was physically, how that spiraled into severe depression, anxiety, and memory loss… and how I eventually lost my ability to speak or even remember my son’s name. I showed pictures of the storage shed I lived in after losing my home and everything in it, how I had literally hit rock bottom after having run three successful sports medicine practices, and how I felt that dying would be easier than living one more day.
The hardest part of sharing this was showing a photo of myself back when I was sick. Even looking at it now brings up a boatload of emotions. Looking at that past version of myself, I can clearly see how much she suffered and how sick she looked. And I have compassion and love for the old version of myself, and I am proud of how in the depths of despair she managed to find her hidden strength, not only to go on, but to change her reality, and to change everything about herself and her situation that wasn’t serving her any longer.
What I am most proud of is the memory of that pivotal day and that “ah ha” moment where I stepped outside of my comfort zone and everything I had thought to be true to think outside the box to find NEW answers and solutions. That was the first day of the transformation that led me down the path of where I am today… and it was a journey — the healing process was not linear. It was uncomfortable at times, made me cry sometimes, and there were times I had doubts… It was a journey of dedication, self-compassion, and learning to feel enough love for myself that I would not give up.
Several years into my healing (yes it took several years to get my health back to baseline), I remember deciding how I would never go back into practice again. You see, I had created a story in my head that I had failed because I lost my practices during my illness, so I associated practicing with failure… It’s a long story as to how I finally decided to go back into practice for myself, but in short, I had a mentor who had known me from the time I had started my first practice, plus a dear friend (who is now my husband), who both gave me a totally different perspective on my story. They helped me see that my mess was my message and THAT was my gift not only to myself but to others.
Their message resonated deeply in my heart, and not long after that, I found myself with a burner phone and some business cards, renting a small 12×12 room with no windows where I hung my diploma… That is where Modern Holistic Health was born and quickly transformed into a global educational platform that now serves clients in over 18 countries, educating them to understand how they CAN heal themselves not only in body, but in mind and spirit, which is the only way to get true and complete healing in your life.
You see, I’ve been there. I’ve lost it all, I’ve walked the dark corridors of depression and massive anxiety, I’ve experienced debilitating pain and physical illness, and I’ve experienced all the struggles that go with being chronically ill, and I want to share with you the ONE biggest factor that helped me heal in mind, body, and in spirit. I want to share with you the ONE most important change I made that turned my life around and recreated the new me I am today… the healthy, passionate, loving, energetic, and driven petite 5’2” human that I am today. I hope that this resonates with someone to give hope, courage, and the belief that ANYTHING is possible IF you are willing to step out of your old box of beliefs and perception to learn how to harness your power to heal yourself and create the reality you truly desire.
You see, once you realize this powerful and very true statement, you also realize that YOU have the ultimate power over the reality you create, and that just like you created one reality, you can also create another more to your liking.
When people ask me how I was able to heal myself, I usually tell part of my story but not all. I tell the parts of how I did all the tangible things… changed my diet, tested to see what toxins I had in my body, learned that I had some genetic variants and addressed those, and so forth. I believed that people were not ready to hear that ONE BIG thing. So instead I crafted my story to include the things I thought would resonate with others. Yes, of course, what I have shared all along is true, but it hasn’t been the WHOLE story.
That ONE BIG thing that was the unstoppable catalyst that turned my life around was realizing that the biggest root cause of my chronic illnesses and harsh reality was my perceptions, thoughts, beliefs, and emotions… all things I had total control over, but just didn’t realize for many years.
I remember that day I stood frozen in fear. I had suffered massive memory loss, so all I could feel was the fear ripping through my body like violent and angry 20-foot crashing waves. As I stood there without the ability to even think, all I could do was feel the sensations of fear coursing through my body. It was at that moment that I somehow realized the fear was not me, it was a broken program running through my body. A program I had created from years of unresolved trauma, unprocessed emotions, and belief systems that truly were not serving my best interest.
It was that pivotal moment of standing in my own stillness and having the courage to essentially let my old self and my old belief systems die, that I found the answers that led me down the path to finding my solutions, my health, and my new reality that I have today.
Looking back, I believe that my loss of cognitive function and what I can best describe as a massive short circuit in my hard drive was what saved me because all I could do was feel my body in that moment and sense what was going on around me. I wasn’t able to create any story or recall any memory that I could tie back to that emotion of fear. It’s like I had stepped out of a false story, a programmed matrix, a nightmare that my mind had created, and I was standing in stillness looking around me as if I had transported myself right out of a terrible dream.
As I stood there unable to move my body from being frozen with fear, that was when I suddenly realized I was the one who created my experiences, and I was the one who drove my mental and physical health into the ground. Now, I’m not saying it was my fault, and I certainly didn’t do it on purpose. I am simply saying that I realized that I had been the one in control of my outcomes all along and that my beliefs, thoughts, unprocessed emotions, and unresolved trauma all came together in a perfect storm that rewired my neurology with a new program that created that hellish reality for me. It was truly all there to teach me so that I could learn and get the wisdom from my experiences.
Waking up that day was that ONE BIG thing that saved my life, helped me find the answers to fix my health, and brought me to where I am today, helping thousands of others around the world to do the same.
I can’t tell you how many times a week I hear from friends, healers, and even clients about how they are learning to become aware of their thoughts and how they are learning to become an observer of their emotions. Ten years ago that would have sounded super strange to hear anyone say that, yet today it’s happening almost every day.
Have you ever thought about how the universe (God) conspires FOR you? How many times in your life have you looked back in time on an event and said to yourself, I wish I would have listened to my gut instead of my mind? If this sounds familiar to you, you are not alone. I believe we are in a crucial moment in human history where we are waking up, becoming conscious and awakening our true selves.
People are waking up to a new awareness that they are not defined by their thoughts or their emotions. Every day people are realizing that their emotions are simply just messages to their bodies and minds… messages that are trying to tell us something that needs to be addressed or a clue to help us make a better decision. And I am seeing people become aware that their mind is not all-knowing, but just a tool that is limited only to what they have programmed into their lives from their parents, peers, school, church, programming (TV), etc.
You see, our programming (along with some genetic influence) shapes our beliefs, our perception of ourselves and the world around us, and influences our thoughts, actions, and emotions. The alchemy of programming, beliefs, thoughts, actions, and emotions updates our nervous system wiring and can also create our reality. Our body literally rewires itself to adapt to the environment we create. And depending on our programming, we either get the result of a great reality or a terrible one.
I created my 5-Part Series Mastering Trauma Masterclass so that others can be exposed to these concepts and see the science behind how it all works and how the placebo effect is not a placebo at all. It’s where the true power of healing comes from.
For years now, I have understood the great influence of our beliefs, thoughts, actions, and emotions (and even the language we use) on our health and how these things can not only make people sick, but keep them there, unable to heal. This understanding is why we incorporate and teach the mind, body, and spirit connection, and all the facets of the human condition that need to be addressed in order to heal.
We even have a book club for our clients and our recent book this past month was Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself by Joe Dispenza. In his book, he teaches about these concepts by explaining the principles of quantum physics to reveal how our beliefs, thoughts, emotions, and actions lead to our results and our reality.
We are truly seeing a time in our human evolution where science is finally catching up to ancient practices and spirituality, and it’s creating a paradigm shift that is allowing us to finally witness our God-given gifts and power to not only heal ourselves individually but as a planet.
If you’ve been looking for answers and solutions, they are available and waiting for you to discover them. I hope that sharing my story today inspired you to perhaps try a different approach in your search for answers and solutions. Once you find them, you too will share what you’ve learned with others. If my story has inspired you or if you have a similar story, please reach out and let’s share what you have to say on my TribeTalk Podcast. Your healing is everyone’s healing, so let’s inspire and heal together.
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Not sure WHO to book with? No Problem! Here at MHH we have an AMAZING team of coaches and EVERY ONE OF OUR COACHES can help you with ANY of your conditions, so just pick the one that has availability on the day and time that works best for you.
Not feeling well and looking for help with your condition, diagnosis, or symptoms that won’t go away no matter what you have tried? Our holistic biological health coaches can help you! Our coaches teach you how your body works, what the underlying cause of your condition or symptoms are, and how to fix and address them using long-term solutions that are data-driven and that work!
Our holistic biological health coaches have a deep understanding of advanced functional testing and genetics testing, along with much experience in complex cases.
Our biological coaching team works with you to empower and teach you how to understand and interpret your lab results, what your results mean, how they are connected to your health conditions or symptoms, and most importantly, what to do with the information, how to put protocols together based on your lab results, and when to reorder your various labs to track progress.
You will become your own healing master learning how to navigate the healing process, how to modify your protocols, when and how to detoxify your organs and cells from the toxins discovered on your lab results. You will learn the importance of tracking your assessment forms and symptom sheets and how to troubleshoot your healing process.
In addition, you have the opportunity to learn how to understand YOUR genetic blueprint – Our coaches are trained in the field of epigenetics and understand implicitly that YOU are in control of your own gene expression and how your genes either work for or against you. If you choose to add genetic testing into your program, your genetic blueprint information can be used not only to help drive your plan of action for healing, but also it can be used to understand your body’s unique nutrition, lifestyle, sleeping, eating, and physical activity needs are so that you can optimize once you are healed.
Get help from our functional nutrition coaches who understand that there is no ONE diet that is right for everyone. Our nutrition coaches work hand in hand with our biological coaches so if you need any lab work done or specific protocols that would require supplement protocols, you have a team working on your behalf and your nutrition coach would make recommendations for which other team coaches would be able to help you.
Your coaches will teach and empower you to learn how to determine and navigate your diet modifications which are decided based on your extensive intake forms, history, and your lab data that your coaches may want to order for you. Based on all of this information, they will teach you what foods to eat and not eat according to various conditions and why.
Your functional nutrition coach will help you learn what substitutes you can use when there are certain foods you may need to stop eating for a period of time, how to put your meals together based on your dietary needs per your lab data, how and when to incorporate gut repair protocols, and what lifestyle modifications you want to address based on your labs and your health conditions.
Nutritional coaching can be a great tool by itself or combined with coaching from our biological coaches. You can schedule with either our biological or nutrition coaches and they can help you get started and make recommendations as needed.
Many people who have successfully mentored with our nutrition coaches have had past issues such as:
Mindset, past and present traumas, and limiting belief systems are some of the biggest barriers to healing, so much in fact that gene expression and biological ‘engines’ of the human body can change for the worse because of it.
In the many years, we have been working in the field of holistic medicine, helping people who have tried everything else with no success or little success, we have discovered how great of an impact our thoughts, beliefs, and past and present trauma, and chronic stress can be to the human body, mind, and spirit.
The rate of recovery and healing for those who place emphasis on creating new neurological pathways to imprint new and healthy mindsets and belief systems in how they perceive themselves and the world around them is greatly improved when the psychological aspect of mindset and integration of mind, body, the spirit is addressed through repatterning of the mind and body neurology.
By removing barriers discovered from traumas, mindset, and conscious/unconscious patterns that are not congruent for healing, health, and vitality, you set yourself up for the best outcomes in your healing journey. Healing only occurs when the physical, emotional, and mental barriers to healing are removed.
Therefore we incorporate mind, body, spirit integration work into our programs and in doing so, we see exponential increases in positive outcomes with our clients. We have put together the most comprehensive ‘whole person’ approach in the world, and this is why our results are so successful.
Our Emotional Processing, Stress Release, & Neurological Repatterning coaches work with you to create new neurological connections, anchor new neurology, and habits, and show you how to become aware of any conscious or unconscious belief systems that may be holding you back from healing and total health.
You are welcome to try one or two appointments to see what you think. We typically recommend a minimum of 6 sessions to make an accurate assessment of how this type of modality is working for you.
Here are some of the modalities our Emotional Processing, Stress Release, & Neurological Repatterning coaches use for brain and body repatterning:
Breathwork is more than just a simple exercise of intentional breathing. Specialized breathwork techniques are used to facilitate major transformation and healing by encompassing a wide range of therapeutic practices that are extremely powerful in providing immediate relief for pulling people out of fight or flight (the amygdala hijack we teach about in Part 2 of our Mastering Trauma Masterclass).
This vagus nerve activation through breath work activates the rest/digest (parasympathetic nervous system), stimulates healing, reduces blood pressure, reduces the cortisol stress response, regulates hormone and blood glucose activity, and heart rate variability (the biological stress response). It rewires the body for self-regulation of the nervous system in a manner that optimizes the body and creates resilience in times of stress.
Yoga breath therapy allows you to disconnect from the mind chatter, mind racing, and negative self-talk and reconnect with your body your energy. From this elevated state of awareness, you are able to facilitate healing, growth, and expansion. And if you are looking for some expansion of your body/mind/spirit awareness, then this type of breathwork can be nourishing and can facilitate the next layer of peace, love, gratitude, connection, clarity, and insights.
In the many years, we have been working in the field of holistic medicine, helping people who have tried everything else with no success or little success, we have discovered how great of a damaging impact our thoughts, beliefs, and past and present trauma, and chronic stress (the fight or flight response) can be to the human body, mind, and spirit.
By becoming aware of how to regulate our own nervous system, and resolve traumas, mindset, and conscious/unconscious patterns that are not congruent for healing, health, and vitality, you set yourself up for the best outcomes in your healing journey. Healing only occurs when the physical, emotional, and mental barriers to healing are removed.
The rate of recovery and healing for those who place emphasis on:
….. Find much success and amplification in their healing journey.
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